Cluttered Thoughts

Here I am again in the state where I myself do not know; the moment when I know I am
but I am not; the moment I know I can but then I cannot; the moment I know I
feel but cannot feel; the moment I know I will but I won’t. Am I really aware of all of these? Or Am I just
in the stage of revulsion and denial?

Yes,
the context is vague and undefined but unfortunately, I cannot make myself
define it. I cannot force myself to put those abstractly beautiful ideas into
concrete words. Simply because, I cannot and do not have the capacity to give
it meaning…still vague isn’t it?

Humorous,
how I try to explain things that are inexplicable in their nature. Amazing how
I lose control of my own consciousness. Stupid, how I try to resolve things I
don’t understand. Insane, how I acknowledge things that aren’t there.